Why, Universe, Why?

I thought, mistakenly, that the stars had aligned for me again. Apparently, as usual, I was wrong. We're dealing with the "situation" again. Including everything, this makes 8. Two more and we'll be in the double digits. All I can say is, WTF. I am is a funk right now. I feel nothing. I know this is because I am in shock. I am out of ideas. I am completely drained. All I can do is hope, and I have little of that right now. I fear the worst, because that's how I am programmed. To make matters worse, I am completely exhausted. I don't think I slept a wink last night. Please. Please. Please.